Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security does not exist in nature or do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than exposure. (Helen Keller)
Uncertainty and insecurity are emotional responses to the ebb and flow of life. Contrary to what I want to believe, there is no such thing as security or certainty in the realm of the physical world where I live. They are not tangible that I can grasp or attach them to my life guaranteeing me safety. Unfortunately, I spend the majority of my life trying to find that illusive security; but if there is one thing that I can count on– it’s that things are going to change.
I can’t help the fact that I want security. I long for it. I feel keenly a panic set in when my world goes through major change. I get nervous, I worry, I become agitated, frustrated, angry, and sad all at once. I want to set things right or find someone who can. I am a human, and a woman at that. Both of these are very strong reasons for me to feel what I feel.
The truth of the matter is that as much as I think I need security, I long for adventure. It’s a paradox for me. I like learning new things, experiencing something new, and meeting people I’ve never met. I like to challenge myself and make myself grow. Only, I want to have the adventure and hold on to everything at the same time. Those two things cannot happen together. I have to let go of some things in order to embrace other things.
Do you remember in my blog about Forgiveness, I said that when we hold unforgiveness we “… keep a tally sheet of what we are owed, (and) we imprison ourselves. We cannot move forward, grow, or love in the capacity that we are created to when we chain ourselves to an unpaid debt.”? Insecurity and uncertainty begin to work on me the same way. I hang on tightly to what I think will give me that security all the while racking up a bill that no one and nothing can satisfy except God Himself.
I am not promised a life free of losses. I am promised an abundant life and a resurrection to better things when this one is over. In this broken, sin-filled world, I will experience pain, suffering, lack, and uncertainty, but if I learn to embrace life and loss and cast all my cares on Christ because He cares for me, I will find more than enough grace, faithfulness, love and hope to carry me through my today into my tomorrow. So, I need to bring my list of unmet needs and desires back to the One who can fulfill them. Life will constantly bring me change. God is constant and never changes. Today I need this reminder!
1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, Jacob,
he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”